the sunny monday

today, a very sunny monday, is a day to do picnics... or sailing.... or just do nothing...
peaople having a holiday...
but as for me....?
the waiting starts...
the waiting of being in the state of having him...
having him forever...

does this mean im in love?
or does this mean im just infatuating...
infatuating of having a life with him forever...
to wake up every morning seeing him happy to be with me..
or loving him as who he is...?
or loving him because, he loves me too...?
but i couldnt deny its really hard to have the worst student at all...
a student you cant teach to love you back..

as they say..... loving is everything..
does this mean i or he has to give up everything...? but i dont think so...
loving is to give integrity of having each other...
to build the trust that nobody can detanggle...
to give hope of the clouds that are clashing to make lightnings...
to give time and freedom of what i or he desires...
to give the love nobody could deny...

but up to this moment...
i really do miss him so much..
to miss his unconditional caress...
to miss his undying kisses...
to miss his warm embraces...
to miss seeing him contented because im with him...

how hard it is to fall in love with somebody who cant love you in return...
just because of...........
the just is to just love... and never give up...
coz maybe someday he would realize that having you would be his greatest moment of his life...
or to you...
the moment that can be tattoed in your heart and mind...

but who knows...... he might be the one.... and he might be knocking on your and say, would like to be wtih me????


=this i write as what my heart says....